Can't Stand Me Now

"I heard that song at the Death Disco,

Starts so fast and ends so slow,

All the time it reminded me of you..."

- The Libertines.

For some reason, I simply cannot stop thinking about this girl. Well ok, there's two girls. One of them lives right here in Dublin, but she has a boyfriend. There's always a catch eh? Well the thing is, she knows how much I like her, and I know that she likes me... and on TOP of that, she told me that her and her so-called boyfriend have an "agreement" where they can be with other people. What kinda relationship is that?! But anyway, my point about her: as great as she is and as much as I want to be with her... I don't think I can simply settle for just once in a while you know? And I hate the idea of her with anyone else as well. So, to be perfectly honest, I have NO clue what I'm gonna do!

And then there's this other girl. She's perfect, like she's actually perfect. She loves all the same music (in fact she got me into the Libertines, which is why that lyric up there has such a significance), she's a great looking girl and she just gets me you know? But - and here's the catch, as always - she lives in London. How crap is that? I messed things up with her as well because I couldn't handle only seeing her once in a while, so I did the manly thing and told her I didn't love her. And I feel terrible for it, not only because it's a horrible thing to say, but because I DO love her.

So yea... how shitty is that? I wish I wasn't so... I duno, messed up I guess. I just wish things could be different.

Teenage Love

I've always wondered what adults think of teenage love. Clearly, I myself am a teenager and believe very much in teenage love, but I wonder if adults sometimes forget what their own teenage years were like? I realise things were a lot different for most parents in their teenage years, but surely the basic things were the same?

In my own personal experience teenage love happens quickly, you don't even realise it's happening until it's gone and your heart has been ripped out of your chest. Before I fell in love I was extremely cynical, for some reason I believed that you cannot fall in love as a teenager, that you haven't experienced enough to know what love really is. But then again, does anyone truly know how to define love? You only know it when you feel it, and when you feel it, nobody can judge whether you are in love or not.

For me, falling in love changed my complete outlook on life. I know that it may sound stupid and perhaps even ridiculous for an outsider reading this, but it did. I was extremely cynical before this, and when I fell in love everything changed. I should really point out that love wasn't returned, not how I wanted it to be returned anyway. And despite feeling extreme pain, my outlook is very optimistic. Perhaps too much so!

Anyway, I guess my point in this blog was to... I dunno, revive teenage memories for some adults who have forgotten what it was like. And to all those cynics out there, teenage love is very much a real thing - be warned, it could creep up on you, or your kids, at any moment. And it'll be the best thing you've ever experienced!